A Soul Apart

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When I was new I came to see

what others sought

was not for me

a soul apart

of rarest tone

smiling out

inside alone

 

I had the music found the words

I used them well

and no one heard

a heart alone

a soul apart

searching for

the missing part

 

I gave myself a gift to share

I opened up

but no one there

a soul apart

the longing grew

for that one heart

that knew I knew

 

Lost the taste for not to be

I settled for

what came to me

a soul unseen

a world apart

I gave my love

but not my heart

 

Every soul sang me a song

whose melody

was not as strong

a soul apart

with just one goal

to find the heart

to fill the hole

 

When I was grey I staked to change

I gave my all

I broadened range

another soul

that did not fit

yet I learned

I could not quit

 

And so I tried and tried again

I went from who

to who knows when

a soul apart

an endless wait

a hope that time

had marked a date

 

Late came the one I waited for

but could not make it

through that door

two souls entwined

yet kept at bay

I lost my heart

it walked away

 

Destined to an empty reign

two souls apart

and lost again

knowing nearness

hearts in sight

beyond their reach

in fading light

 

And so it is I finally see

that it was never

meant for me

a soul apart

much older grown

a heart that beats

inside its own

 

a soul apart

in lifelong roam

a vagabond

without a home

 

a soul apart

a soul too late

a soul alone

wanes to fate

 

a soul apart

with tale to tell

to just one soul

who knows it well

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        s. paul    (Jan. 2020)